LIFE! it's a weird thing.. it doesn't wanna do as told! And it really pisses me off!
Why can't our life just be good every day? Why does it have to go so crucially(dunno if thats a word) wrong so sudden. My biggest problem is love. The guy i like is so cute and sweet and hansom and.. oh now im crying again,... Perfect! That is my problem, i will never ever have a chance with him. I can't even talk to him in person. I'm such a little shy idiot! And i hate it! He knows i like him... and i know his feeling, none at all of that kind!!
I wish i'd never met him, but it's his own fault! he began writing to me and talking to me.. but he changed his mind i guess. My friend talkes to him too, and he seemes more interested in her than me, and im soo jealous. I know i shouldn't be but it's so hard not to. She's promised me that she will never let it go so far. But I...I ...i just can't take all of this! it's too damn hard to handle!! I have to forget him. And i think i'll never want to love any boy again, because it's just to depressing. It hurts to much to get rejected. And i don't want to try it again.
So now i am saying goodbye to love... For as long as i can handle it... when i crack i'll die. So it's kind of goodbye to everyone. I won't be the same anymore. School is what i have to focus on from now on.
Goodbye.... i love you, but you don't love me, fuck it, i'll have to get used to it.
Why can't our life just be good every day? Why does it have to go so crucially(dunno if thats a word) wrong so sudden. My biggest problem is love. The guy i like is so cute and sweet and hansom and.. oh now im crying again,... Perfect! That is my problem, i will never ever have a chance with him. I can't even talk to him in person. I'm such a little shy idiot! And i hate it! He knows i like him... and i know his feeling, none at all of that kind!!
I wish i'd never met him, but it's his own fault! he began writing to me and talking to me.. but he changed his mind i guess. My friend talkes to him too, and he seemes more interested in her than me, and im soo jealous. I know i shouldn't be but it's so hard not to. She's promised me that she will never let it go so far. But I...I ...i just can't take all of this! it's too damn hard to handle!! I have to forget him. And i think i'll never want to love any boy again, because it's just to depressing. It hurts to much to get rejected. And i don't want to try it again.
So now i am saying goodbye to love... For as long as i can handle it... when i crack i'll die. So it's kind of goodbye to everyone. I won't be the same anymore. School is what i have to focus on from now on.
Goodbye.... i love you, but you don't love me, fuck it, i'll have to get used to it.
