Why. </3

Why. </3
Why do words mean so much ?
Why is she more to you after one conversation ?
Why didn't you just text me if you wanted to talk ?
Why didn't you just stop and say hi ?
Why didn't you just yell after me ?
Why do you CARE ! ?
Why do I CARE ! ?


I really hate that I love you !

# Posté le vendredi 10 octobre 2008 17:59

sorry ...

i decided i didn't wanna continue the story anyway... cause it wont ever happen anyway.
What's the point of writing down your dreams if they don't come true.. ??
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# Posté le vendredi 10 octobre 2008 17:40

summer dream.

Theres this girl that went on holiday, with her family, to a town in the middle of nowhere. Ok, there where towns around it, but it was still really boring.
One late afternoon she took her dog for a walk. And as she went there and thought that she was never going meet any people in this town, she saw some boys talking and laugthing on a bench further one. They wont notice me, i'm not they're kind of stile anyway. She thought as she saw them, but when she looked at them as she walked past, she got eyecontakt with one of them.He had brown hair, and blue eyes, he was perfect! He smiled at her, so it made her blush. When she got home, she couldn't think of anything else then him, his beautiful eyes and dreamy hair. The next days she desided to walk past the same spot where she'd met him, but this time he wasn't there. In all depresion she thought He would never want to be with me anyway, so why try to find him again!. So she went to get icecream, 'cause somehow a big chocolat icecream always seemed to help on depresion. But as she got there it was really crowded, she stood in the que for what felt like twenty minutes. And finaly as it was her turn, and she saw who stood behind the counter. Oh My God! FUCK ! It's him! she thought in chok. " Hi again," He said with the cutest voice, " can i help you with something?" he asked with a blink in his eye. ok,ok,ok you can do this she thought common mouth say something!!!. "ehh...em...eh...one small softice....please" She said, as she didn't have time to think about the chocolate icecream. When she reached over the counter, to get her icecream, she put her walet on the counter. And in the rush of getting out of there, to avoid more imbaresment, she forgot all about it.
When she was half way home and had finished her softice, she put her hand in the pocket where the walet should have been, she realised it! Oh Shit! i forgot it on the counter! Shit! how stupid am I!!
As she was running back to get the walet, it began raining. Greate! Oh i dont hope hes still there!and then again.. she thougt. When she was there she was nearly all wet from top to toe.
Then she got inside, and saw it was much bigger than before, because this time there where nobody there.
" I see you came back, did you miss me?" she heard a boys voice say behind her. oh no he didnt! " No i just came to get my walet! ", " yeah i thought so, is it this one?" She turned around and looked first at him and afterwoods at the black walet, with flower prints on it, in his hand. " Yes it is, thank you" she said as she grabed it so she could get out of there in a hurry. "It's really stupid if you go out there now..." , " and why so?? huh?" she asked him. "It's kinda poring down and it's cold and your already realy wet....And i can borow you a dry t-shirt if you'd like one...." , "I don't know if it's such a good idea that i stay here...!" , "Hey, I'm sorry about that before, it was just a little joke...And i'll give a hot chocolate as apologi." , " Ok then, deal." . When she'd gotten the dry t-shirt on, they both sat down and drank a hot chocolate together. "by the way, im Thomas," he said with a smile. " And i'm...", " Mia, i know i looked at the id in the walet, to see who's it was."," oh so you went through my stuf , huh!" ,"What! No i just...", " I know, i'm just joking, haha! ", " Oh no you didn't! " Thomas said as he poked her in the side so it tikeled! "No stop, please i'm really tikelish!" ," Muhaha! I get my revenge!"....
And like this it went on till it stopped raining.
" I hope to see you again, maybe a trip to the cinema one day??" he said a bit shy," yeah that would be greate!" she said with a big smile on her face. " but ehm is there a cinema i this town??" ," Eh actually not, but we can meet here tomorow and take a bus to the next town if you want?", " Yeah i'd love that! I just gotta ask my mom, cuz she doesn't want me to get lost or anything..." ," oh yeah i understand but send me a message when you know!", " Ok i will." Then suddenly they stood there looking at each other without anything to say..." So i'll be going now then before my mom gets to worried, hehehe." ,"oh yeah ofcourse." before she went they hugged each other.
She began walking and suddenly Thomas saw that she had forgotten her wet t-shirt so he ran after her. " Hey! Mia! wait you forgot your t-shirt" She quikly turned around to him and walked towards him. " oh yeah, Thanks, hehe, dont wanna forget anything again, hehe." then they stood there again without anything to say...
She reached to his cheek and gave him a kiss, then in the closeness of eachother he gave her a kiss, but not on the cheek, on the mouth. They finished kissing and smiled a bit imbaresd at eachother and then Mia went home.
"Where have you been! Mia!" her mom said worried when she walked in the front door. i forgot my walet in the icecream bar and then i got wet because of the rain, and this new friend of mine borrowed me this t-shirt of his because i didn't want to get sick, and then i stayed untill the rain was gone, i'm really sorry i didnt call but my phone had no reseption..." ," Oh well thats good to know, so who is this new friend of yours." His name is Thomas, hes really nice and we planed to go to the cinema tomorow, but we have to take a bus to it because its outside this town... Can i please!?" , " well ok then but remember your phone so i can reach you at all times!", " ok i will and thank you mom!" she said as she gave her a hug. "Go in your room now and get some dry clothes on."

will be continued....

# Posté le vendredi 15 août 2008 10:51

Modifié le vendredi 15 août 2008 19:34

worries...

worries...
The worries are to hard to think about! But still i can't stop worring.
While i worry i think about how some people in the world that have it much worse then me, can have no worries at all. how some people just lay the worries behind them and forget! I wish i was just like them.
My worries are that i'm never gonna get a boyfriend or just a boy friend, you know a boy that is just a friend.
Every day, i imagin, that i met a boy in this weird way, you now just like in the movies... But i know that it will never happen if i worry so much. But i just can't stop worring.

if anybody out there reads this.
Please if you have an answer how to stop worring, please tell me!

# Posté le vendredi 04 juillet 2008 08:37

Modifié le dimanche 06 juillet 2008 17:48

so far...

so far...
ARRGG..!!! i'm soo anoyed at my pc right now! I've tried to make this articel to times now and it has gone away from it every time i've been helf through my mind in writing!!
Well ok over again.

The summer hasn't been so long yet, but still it feels like i haven't seen my friend for ages!
Right now im listenong to the artic monkeys. But i don't get how a band that has a front singer who sounds drunk while he sing can be so famous. It's just weird.
Nearly all my friends are gone, of on holiday to some cool contry in the world. While im jsut roting up here in front of my pc. I soo feel like dieing, 'cause im soo fcking bored.
One of my best freind is in england on some language summer school, and i soo want ed to go there but it is to expensive.-.- She texted me and said that the family she was staying with is really nice, but i got a message from her that said like, " fck hes hot!" and i aswered kinda late, but i so wanna know, who's hot?!
I'm so sure that the guy is gonna be her summer romance/flirt. But i'm never gonna have that 'cause yeah i'm home! And when i go on holiday it's gonna be in Denmark, in some boring town nobody knows... and i'm sure as hell that no guy there will want me, or that i want them. Plus+ my parents are there...-.-

Well i'm gonna go now so bye everyone and have a greate holiday in compair to me :) farvel...

# Posté le dimanche 29 juin 2008 17:56