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Hey ppl.

Omg looking through my blog, i just think to myself, what the eff? I have been a really depressed person...once...
And yeah it's ages ago i was on skyrock so i thought i'd return. Even though i know no ones acctually reading my articles, so FUCK YOU, haha! JUST KIDDING XD.

And btw. correct my spelling mistakes plz.. if you see one :b

Yeah well life's tough, but isn't it always in someway? i believe it is...
But i figured that finding love isn't actually something that important, even though it seems like it would be grand to have a boy/girlfriend (I'm not bi. just saying ;b) it will come to everybody someday! I know it's really depressing seeing some of the cool and popular guys/girls run around holding hands with their hot new boy/girl-friend, but who knows if they are actually happy together? It could all be a show, just for them to show you how unbelievebly "cool" They are(not). But hey lighten up! It shouldn't be the end of the world just cuz u haven't gotten a boy/girl-friend yet but everybody else has! They are just showing of! XD

Just wait and see and focus on other stuff in life, like yourself, school, friends, family ! <3

thats that for this time see ya soon i guess :) byebye <3

LIFE! it's a weird thing.. it doesn't wanna do as told! And it really pisses me off!
Why can't our life just be good every day? Why does it have to go so crucially(dunno if thats a word) wrong so sudden. My biggest problem is love. The guy i like is so cute and sweet and hansom and.. oh now im crying again,... Perfect! That is my problem, i will never ever have a chance with him. I can't even talk to him in person. I'm such a little shy idiot! And i hate it! He knows i like him... and i know his feeling, none at all of that kind!!
I wish i'd never met him, but it's his own fault! he began writing to me and talking to me.. but he changed his mind i guess. My friend talkes to him too, and he seemes more interested in her than me, and im soo jealous. I know i shouldn't be but it's so hard not to. She's promised me that she will never let it go so far. But I...I ...i just can't take all of this! it's too damn hard to handle!! I have to forget him. And i think i'll never want to love any boy again, because it's just to depressing. It hurts to much to get rejected. And i don't want to try it again.
So now i am saying goodbye to love... For as long as i can handle it... when i crack i'll die. So it's kind of goodbye to everyone. I won't be the same anymore. School is what i have to focus on from now on.

Goodbye.... i love you, but you don't love me, fuck it, i'll have to get used to it.

I don't want to leave. Not now. I have reached so far to get to where i am. And now i'm afraid i have to leave.
It's not sure where i'm going... or if i'm going at all.
But i'm so afraid, so terified. What will happen if i leave? Will people miss me ?? Or will they just say " oh shes not here anymore. thats surprising.", and forget all about me after that.
I love this place, every little thing about it. When it rains, when the sun shines, especialy when it snows.
And the town, the forest, the people. My friends, my school... everything !
but will all that miss me ?? I'm so afraid that everything will forget me.
Why am i so afraid of leaving something that might not even miss me ??
I just want to make the best of it while i'm here, so nobody will forget me, so nothing can hurt me when i leave.
All though It will be the bigest pain of them all, to leave...

i love everything about this place.

You are the one I want.
You are the one I want... to kiss.
You are the one I want... to hold.
You are the one I want... to love.